\\*..Bria..*//

♥ every morning when she wakes up, he's the first thing she sees.. and it's still exciting
♥she melts when he touches her
♥she can look at him.. and forget about existance itself.. because he's all that matters
♥she forgets about everyone else, when he looks at her
♥she cant stop smiling, and not because she doesn't want to, but because she cant
♥he makes he loose her breath, without saying a word
♥she cant remember how anyone else made her feel

 

♥she looks at him.... and see's the rest of her life

 

she [loves] that boy.. ♥

Sometimes, she wishes that everything would fast forward.. She wishes that she could ech-a-sketch her life.. Erase what doesn't belong, and draw in who does.. Soemtimes she wishes that everything was how it was when we were all 4 years old..

Do you ever wish that your life would turn out how you drew it when you were 4?
Big mansions, and a tall dark handsome prince.. a millions babies.. and all the same best friends.
Wake up, day dreamer, this is the real world.
Wake up, sleeping beauty, you've got reality to face..
Wake up..

Maybe she wants to keep pretending.. Maybe she would love to keep her head in the clouds
Back when the world consisted of lollipops and barbie dolls..
Back when we didnt worry about life
Maybe she wants that...

She doesn't know what she wants....


                                maybe she wants an ech-a-sketch

So.. I was at the circus yesterday helping my aunt with the kids. And while we were in intermission, my aunt got a call. It was her husband. My great gramma had died. I never knew her.. But you know its tht thing.. like "is grampa okay? <3" my aunts not related to her, my mom and her have different fathers.. but my grampa was raised like her father too .. Yesterday was his birthday.  She died on his birthday.. that kills... Aunt Linna called him to wish him a happy birthday on our way home with 3/4 kids were asleep. He asked to talk to me.. I wished him a happy birthday for my mother and me and told him i loved him very much. Normally he's happy on the phone. Bouncy it seems, but he was soo quiet I had to hold the cll phone practically in my ear...
My mum didn't know her basically bcoz her relationship with my grampa is complicated, so I won't explain it.. But she's really upset and on leave from work for a death in the family... I didn't know her either, of course.. but hearing him so upset and seeing her so upset is making me upset..


    He's also very scared he's dying. He thinks he is.. He's got emphazima from smoking... very very badly.. I can't lose him :( I'd die.. That's just how it works.. ugh..

so i bought adorable shoes yesterday. ya ya theyre dirty.. i was playing in them :P!

I bought new shoes today <3

So I haven't really been up to much lately.. 
School.. Drama.. so much fucking drama!
[and more to come. I'm not done w/ that three ugly faced bitch yet. not even started]
We havent found out how er did in drama yet..But if we do go on to Toronto.. it's the same weekend as the cheerleading competition. Sarah said Mrs. Smith is going to find a way for us to be in two places at once. . Missisagua for cheerleading is only an hour from TO.. an hourish.. && we're there for 3 days each.. so thts almost 5 or 6 days away from home.. in a hortel.. on my 3 or less horus a week job.
How gay.

imissher :(

WHY WONT MYSPACE WORK?

So, Uh.. 

This is me
writing in my journal. hehe
I'm sick
ew being sick

So I've realized..
A lot of my recent entries
Are of Mike..
&& thats just disgusting
But I don't want to.. 
\delete/ them
I made them so
[pretty]